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 Burning Cars Saturday, December 7, 2002 :: 11:35 a.m.

I know that it has been a long time since I last bloged but lets put it this way; a lot has happened and I have been really busy. First off I should address that Julia and I were dating for a long time. It was not just a few week thing. I was (to put it frankly) a big secret. It was really hard and very hard to deal with. I really just wanted the world to know and I did not care what any one else thought. I mean in a relationship does it really matter what any one else thinks? No, it does not matter if you are happy and the other person is happy; you can tell all the other people in the world Fich Dich! (I am not sure if that is spelled right but hell it is a differnt language.) That was a major problem I was not happy anymore and I am sure that she was not either. The fact of the matter is we boht wanted very different things is life. If you are reading this you will understand later in the blog. I mean we did have good times and it was fun while it lasted but I came to the relization that we may not have been ment to be with eachother. Now she is dating Cam (that is good for her) and I am with the amazing Rica. Let me tell you there are a lot of things to tell you about Rica.

Rica is great! (make sure you noted the words great and Rica in the same sentence) She makes me feel like no one else ever has; in all honesty. I mean we go out, laugh together, talk, look at the sky, sit by the creek, go for pointless drives, do small little things for eachother, and a lot more. (oh and let me tell you she brought me some cookies that her gradmother back in Germany made and let me tell you; you would never want an American cookie again). Not to mention she is german. She is from germany, and she goes back in july; but that is not to bad because if you keep reading it will be explained. I think I should get something out that I have been keeping in from some people. Rica is the best person i have ever dated. I am not going to lie. Why? because her and I still act like we are friends. When we talk it is like talking to a best friend. The is a level of seriousness to the relationship but it is more friends than boyfriend/girlfriend. I think that is more important to concider you and your seginifcant other as friends before you look at yourself as being segnificant others. Think about it, if you can not be friends first how do you expect to be able to talk to eachother, not get sick of eachother, have fun and laugh a lot ( I am not saying you cna not laugh while you are in a relationship but you do laugh more with friends), or even just feel comfotable and not serisous all the time? Rica and I have the friendship and relationship thing going on. It is really really cool.

Now to address some things from previous blog entries. I dropped the record contract. I told the company no, because after looking over the rough copy of the contract and them telling me what they are going to change and what they are not going to change I saw very clearly that they were going to try and screw me over royaly. So I told them no, but we are going to keep good business and I will send them bands and stuff to see if they are interested. I am kind of like a free-lance talent scout until I leave. I think now I should explain the me leaving. When I decided to not sign the contract with the record company I realized a lot about college and moving foward in life while still working on music. So what is I do? Well, everyone, I joined the U.S. Army. I leave July 24 for BCT. I will be in Fort Benning, Georgia, for nine weeks. Then I have AIT training at Fort Gordon, Georgia, for 23 weeks. So you will not see more for a long time if you live in my area and you will probably not see to many blogs while I am in training. But, I will blog and tell you how much fun i am having and how much hell it really is. : ) Then I will be back home for a few weeks when I get back from AIT, then I go to Germany for two and a half years.

Now you are probably wondering, where does my music fit into all of this? To tell everyone the truth it is a lot easier to get signed over seas than it is here. (inperticularly in Europe). So while I am in germany I will be working on music. Don't worry I chose a job where I will not see combat. I will be working with phiberoptics, networking and stuff like that. So I will be pretty safe is war in Iraq really does break out. I will miss everyone; and don't worry that will be a leaving for the army party. So yeah that is kind of a explaination to the "it is okay that Rica is leaving in July." After training I will be over there. Her and I plan on continuing our relationship. So yeah. I think that this has been pretty long; so if you want to respond to any of this just send me an e-mail. Take care everyone.
Burning Cars Tuesday, November 5, 2002 :: 04:50 p.m.

Hey everyone! Well a lot has happened this week; or is preparing to happen this week. This week is my birthday. Thursday. Anyway, last weekend I hung out with (president) Bob and Sabina. Well there were like 8 people at Sabina's house including me. We got into this giant rubber-band fight in the middle of her house. I shot (president) Bob in the head. Now how harsh is that? The Vice president shot the president. BAMMM.

My parents got me a digital recorder for my birthday. It is sweet, and I never have to go to a studio again. So my new cd is well underway. But, beware, it is goign to take me a lot of time. My friend Michelle (looks exactly like Christina Ricci; Christina Ricci soooooo Hot) is going to take my head shots and stuff for the cd. It is going to turn out reakly nice. If you have any requests for remakes (the song has to be at least 20 years old) for me to make and put on the cd e-mail me, because I am going to take a pole. The album is going to be called "Pressed Penny."

Well also over this week I talked to someone at Ashland University about filling a radio spot on their radio station. No offense to Ashland but their radio station really is not all that good. I am refraining from saying sucks. Wait, to late. But this is where I come in and make it sweet. Today I am sending an e-mail to one of the directers at Xtream radio. If I get lucky enough they will sponser my show. So please cross your fingers for me.

I am going to take off. If you have any requests or responses to my entries please e-mail me. Vampireunis@aol.com
Burning Cars Monday, October 28, 2002 :: 04:47 p.m.

Hey everybody. Well I just want to let you know that the music is coming along awesome. I have alot of new ideas. When I finish it I will let you know how to get it. You will probably be able to get it from me. Now it is time for a story.

Well my friend Bob. (and yes his name is bob). Well, he was helping a friend move some of his grandfathers stuff to another house. Well one of the items happened to be a big ass table saw. So they put it in the bed of this truck and went drving away. While on a main street that they turned on to, the table saw just happened to jump out of the truck. So they had to stop the truck and run out into the traffic and pick up this 150lb. table saw that is laying in the middle of the street. HA I wish I would have seen that one.

Moving on. I get to here from the company today. I am goign to send them some of my stuff when it is done. I mean they want to make me a web page and I can not give them the money to do it. Let alone find a sponser to give them money. They need to realize and I am going to tell them, I can not amaze them with my wallet, I can only amaze them with my talent. If they can not accept that, then I guess I will have to talk to this other company that I talked to.

I have not told anyone about the second company because I do not think anything will come of it. It is kind of funny, I am this close to getting full deal and I still think that I will never get one. Go figure.

Well that is about it. I guess I will talk to everyone later. Peace. lol.
Burning Cars Wednesday, October 16, 2002 :: 11:11 p.m.

Sometimes we have no idea where we are going. I know that I do reach my reaking point at times. Just as everyone reaches a breaking point one time or another. But, we must be strong and hold together. Right now my life is really busy, and things are hard; but a friend of mine is going through things that are even harder.

I want my friend, and all of my friends for that matter, to know that I am there for them. Though I can not always be there physically. I am always there to talk to. If you need me I am there. Times do get hard. Some people don't know how to deal with or handel them.

I do not have all the answers. I do not know everything. I can say I know a lot. When I was younger I had so much spare time that I began to research many things. What was I suppose to do not be constructive. Well, that would just not be the "Colin" thing to do.

I am not the guy the people look for. (Am I ladies). I am just another guy. I am the average joe. Well, Colin in my case. But, I do know how to talk to people and let them know what is goign down. I even help people realize things or even how they feel in a indirect or direct way. I can say things that will piss someone off, but they will soon realize what I was trying to get at. Last year I told a friend that was in love with a guy named Matt that he was not a good guy that he was not the one for her. At the time she was confused on how she felt (I new that he loved her and was sure of it).She got mad at me until she asked why I said such a thing. I explained to her that I "told her what she needed to hear." She realized she did love Matt and wanted to be with him. Sometimes saying things indirectly works better than saying saying things directly.

matt knives are used for matts.
Burning Cars Tuesday, October 15, 2002 :: 10:34 p.m.

P.S is it wrong to educate someone on the better sides of masterbation?
Burning Cars Tuesday, October 15, 2002 :: 09:02 p.m.

Hey everyone this is Colin. Sorry about the site change, but i seem to have forgotten my old sites password so i made this new one. Life has gotten damn good. I am talking to a record company as we speak about a deal. Can you say "AWESOME" or for those at AU "FABULOUS."

People, life is what you make it. You have to enjoy what you have; and work with what you got. No one is exactly happy wiht who they are. There is always something that someone hates about their life, or who they are. not even famous people are happy with who they are. I mean people that like sex sometimes feel like they are a whore. Even if they are having it with only one person. A person with money soon realizes that they wish that they didn't have it because people think they are fake. Or they feel that people are using them for money.

The world seems to work in a screwy way. If you have what you want; you always want more. Who knows what is next for people? Maybe one day we will see past our differences. But then again with everyone blowing things up; that does not seem like it will be in the near future. As John Lennon once said "All you need is love." And for all the ladies out there as Bob Marley once said "No woman, no cry."